Wow, OK…umm, not sure what to say about the last 2 months, haven’t updated because so much has changed. I’ve got a lot to say so lets start at the beginning.
I’ve started taking a mood stabilizer to manage my Bi-Polar disorder. Started it about 2 months ago, I’m taking about 200mg every day, probably forever. It’s actually helped a lot, I’m 100 times better, happier and a lot more pleasant to be around. Everyone says I’ve changed and it’s a good thing. I feel a lot better, I was so nervous about going on something, but now I wonder how I survived the last few years without it. Have to thank Poetgurl for giving me the advice, the help and the strength to actually do it.
Speaking of my co-author and friend…she’s not just my friend anymore. As of a few weeks ago, I officially have a girlfriend. Poetgurl and I started dating and ended up together. It’s funny, a relationship is something I never wanted in my life, and now that I have one I can honestly say I’ve never been happier in my entire life. I am completely, totally, hopelessly in love…and I’m cherishing every second of it. This is the most amazing thing, I think, that’s ever happened to me. I can’t really even describe how much it means to me and how much it’s changed me. I have a girlfriend, I’m in a relationship, and I never want it to end. Doesn’t sound like me eh? Yeah well, things change. I never thought I would, but I guess it’s human nature to change, to grow and search for happiness. And it seems, however surprising and improbable it once appeared, that I’ve found happiness and love. We’ll see where it takes me. 
In other news…I got a new job!!! Same company, new department, different challenge. And for the first time in 6 years, I don’t work in a freakin call center! Last week, I accepted a job as a Network Operator for Charter. This is going to be different and something I’m not used to, but I look forward to the challenge of learning something new and growing. The biggest thing is that my new shift is 2–11pm, so no more overnights. That is going to be weird to actually work during the day and sleep at night. I’ve been so used to being backwards for the last 2 years it’s gonna be weird to be on a relatively normal schedule.
So yeah, I know I haven’t been around for a while, but my life has changed in so many ways…haven’t had time to sit down and really analyze it all. I keep waiting for the bottom to drop out of my life, lol, but everything seems to be looking up, getting better and heading toward me having an actual happy future. Could that be possible? Me…finding a path and moving onto an actual normal life? I will say one thing, for the first time in a long time, I honestly look toward the future with optimism and hope.
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