Sick and Tired...

Well…Where do I start with this? Last night was probably the most screwed up, irritating, humiliating, emotionally exhausting night of my entire life, and I’ve been suicidal before! I don’t even know what to say about it. I was…insulted, defended, mistrusted, kinda forgiven, yelled at, laughed at, broke up with and made up with my girlfriend, and cried…all in the span of 5 hours. I’m upset, pissed off, sick, have a massive headache and have a lot on my mind. Very little I can actually talk about. Lets just say that judging someone without so much as a conversation…is WRONG, upsetting and just….I don’t even know what. I feel that a friendship and a relationship is doomed forever because of my age. Because despite who I really am, I happened to be born a few years too early. It’s a feeling I’ve never experienced before…to be completely not trusted. I don’t even know how to feel about this…I’ve gotten to the point of being completely numb. Why can’t anything go right in my life? I can’t even seem to have someone that truly loves me...